i know what happened. i know who i am. i know where i'm at. i just don't know why. my name is violet. i'm 19. at least i think i am. i'm not even sure anymore. all my life i've lived for everyone around me. i never once lived for myself... i was always worried about impressing people... making sure i'm liked, and liked i was. not once have i worried about finding someone i love, or doing something i like. i lived my parents life. i lived the way my mother wanted me to. she was my influence and my hate all in one. if she said no, that was the end of it. but it's not like i ever asked for anything. i was too scared. i never voiced my opinions. i never voiced. want to see what life is like for me? yeah, i know you dont. it doesn't matter... no one would want my life. it's so dull... boring, and organized. who would want to live that way? but i'll tell you happened. i'll share my mind. my eyes will be your flat screen t.v. i won't blink. i promise.

i. i stand. not crawling. not falling down. i. I bleed. the demons that drag me down. i. i stand. not crawling. not falling down. i i’ll bleed. the demons. that pull me down.

goodbye. sunshine. I’ve put it out again. sad. i’m over. personalities. conflicting. i don’t need you. or anyone. but me. i’ll just be. living my own life. i feel my glowing center grow. infecting i feel alive. shovel dirt over lime. plant it in myself to sit like a seed under covers of earth and just be. sinners. pointing fingers at me.

--- mudvayne

okay so i know i never use this... but i just recently found it again and i do want to use it... it's not going to be a weblog... it's going to be my stories and poems page... pretty much a freewrite page... you'll find anything from drawings, sketches, to stories and poems.. and even lyrics to songs i love to listen to. i do not claim those lyrics as my own, and never will. but i want to share them, and i will. thanks for visiting and i don't mind if you come back for more.